Love Yourself

Do you ever look back and kick yourself for not appreciating what you once had?

I remember all through high school thinking that I was this huge fat cow and now looking back at pictures I wonder what the heck was wrong with me.

I looked HOT!

Now believe me I am not really a self absorbed person- okay maybe just sometimes- but really I was looking pretty darn good.

And I was too stupid to appreciate it.

I have come to the conclusion that the female race will always be unhappy with themselves.

They will find something that they THINK is wrong with them

and obsess over what all of the other imperfect women are thinking about them.

Women really don't work out, get dressed up, or put on makeup for men...

It's for other women.

We all do it.

We all judge each other.

Why can't we all just accept that no one is perfect and just because someone is carrying around a few extra pounds doesn't mean they are not beautiful, smart, witty, etc.

I get the whole heath thing-yes it is important to do the right things so that you will live a long, happy, healthy life. 

Well you know what-

There is no knowing if I'll get hit by a bus tomorrow so if I want that brownie I'm going to eat it.

I'm not going to eat a brownie three times a day for the rest of life, but if I want one here and there I'm not going to feel guilty about it.

I am going to make important changes. 

I am going to care more about this body I have been given but I am going to stop obsessing.

I am going to start loving myself again.

I am probably never going to attain my high school body-I don't think most of us will-but I can be proud of myself-for the wonderful qualities I do have.

I need to stop comparing myself to others or thinking that people like me less because I am overweight.

I am that same person 50 lbs heavier that I was 50lbs lighter and I think I am pretty awesome.

So there. Taker it or leave it.

And please start loving yourself too!

You are amazing and wonderful!

Sorry to get all deep on you.

Refill Please

So we went to dinner tonight with our friends Sean and Emily.

I kinda felt like throwing a fork at our waitress as shown above to try to get her attention.

I honestly hate when you see your server standing in the back chatting it up with her friends while your soda has been sitting there empty for the past 10 minutes.

Isn't that what shes getting paid for?

I mean I'm not usually a very demanding customer but I do need a drink to be able to enjoy my food.

When she would finally mosey on over and we would ask her to get us refills it would take another 10 minutes for her to bring them back.

Plus she would act annoyed.

I've never been a server so I can't really relate but if you want a tip from me lady you better keep my Diet Coke filled or we're going to have some problems ;)

Just Say No

Justin and I went to see "Rise of the Planet of the Apes" tonight which I have to say was a great movie. 

One of my favorite things about the movies is a large popcorn and diet DP. I am happy to report that I had neither. Just my nails to bit on. Don't worry I didn't eat them-that would be disgusting!

Anyways I figure that I really don't need popcorn and a soda at the movies. 

Its the small changes that matter.

Or that's just what I'm going to keep telling myself because I'd rather be getting thinner like the actors not fatter like the audience.

No one has ever told me that I looked thin and I don't think I ever will be told that. 

I'm just not built like a twig.

I've got lovely lady lumps and bumps and rolls. HA HA.

I would however like to be at a healthy weight.

So for that reason I passed on the buttery goodness and ice cold heaven tonight.

The scale better be good to me in the morning!

Dry Ice on a Tooth Ache?

Remember a few posts ago when I mentioned I had a tooth ache. Well I went to the dentist today. He tapped  on all of the teeth in the general region of the pain and then he decided it would be a good idea to put from dry ice to my teeth. What a great idea. I already have pain so lets just make me jump out of seat. 

After not being able to fully assess what tooth was causing me the problems he did a filling on one of the teeth that "might" be the source of pain. Well now that the numbness is gone it still hurts. Great. Lucky me.

Oh and not to mention I chipped off half of my left bottom molar when I was home. 

I explained to the dentist that it happened while I was eating chips, sunbathing at the beach.

He asked me what kind of chips they were. 

I proceeded to tell him that they were mesquite barbecue kettle chips and that they are absolutely delicious.

He said that chips are the worst for teeth.

I responded with a  ya but have you every tried mesquite barbecue kettle chips? 

They are well worth it. 

Well maybe not because now I need a crown which costs like five bazillion dollars but I'm not blaming it on the chips.

I'm blaming it on my already horrid, decaying teeth.

But seriously if you haven't tried those chips go get some NOW!!!

They are heavenly.

Oops

So today didn't go quiet as planned. 

I realized I forgot to set my alarm last night when I woke up at 11:30 this morning-

maybe it had something to do with the fact that I didn't go to sleep until about 1:30

I met Justin for lunch, went to the library to check out a few books (one of which was entitled Run Your Butt Off-yup I'm actually going to attempt to do just that very thing), and then came home to pick up the apartment.

After all of this excitement I drove an hour and fifteen minutes to pick up my friends from the airport.

As I was sitting there waiting for them I got a call informing me that they had flown over the city and then because of some malfunction turned around and flew back to where they came from...

They then waited for a different plane-which ended up being several different planes...

This leads me to the part of my day that didn't quiet go as planned.

I was by myself, it was dinner time, and I had to wait to hear from them to see when they would get in.

I drove around and didn't see any healthy options for dinner but I did see

FIVE GUYS

Yup I went in.

I usually make fun of the people who are eating alone in places and lo and behold I was the loser eating by myself tonight.

And there was some creepy old guy who stared at me the whole time- maybe he knew I was cheating on my diet!

O well.

I must share my failures as well as my accomplishments.

Today was a failure.

So anyways I left our home at 4:45 tonight and just got back home at 10.

Tomorrow will be better.

I'll remember to set my alarm tonight.

Sweat

Today was much better than yesterday. 

I don't know why it is so hard for me to actually get up the motivation to go to the gym because once I'm there I remember how much I love it.

Exercise gives you endorphins and endorphins make you happy! 

-Elle Woods

And we all know I need all the endorphins I can get!

I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes on the stationary bike, 20 minutes walking/jogging the track, and 10 minutes of shooting hoops. 

Not too shabby for my first day back from the couch ;)

However I must say that I really hate the grey shirts we have to wear to the school gym...they show all of my nasty sweat.

Its a darn good thing I'm already married because I definitely wouldn't be picking up any dates with my horrid perspiring body!

It was a darn good thing I went in the morning too because come mid-afternoon the migraine was back in full force-despite my consumption of my cherished diet DP.

Now I sit here with a horrendous tooth ache praying I'll be able to fall asleep and make it to the dentist in the morning.

Hope all of you enjoy your gym time in whatever shirt you desire that hides your sweat.

Someday, Someday...

World's Worst Migraine

I had every intention of working out today. However, this plan was thwarted by the world's worst migraine.

You see I decided that I would quit my beloved diet DP cold turkey. BAD IDEA!!! 

Seriously never do it.

So I went to get a few things from the store tonight- one of which was some of my elixir of life.

I guess I'm going to have to wean myself off.

So I am sad to report that today no sweat inducing workout was done other than doing the dishes in our un-air conditioned apartment. 

We did have a yummy dinner though recipe found here