Wish Me Luck

I bet you can take a guess as to why I haven't on here in a while. I haven't been doing to great on the whole diet thing. I attempt every once in a while to start something new. I joined weight watchers again and then quit. I joined Gold's Gym-I've done Zumba a number of times but I really need to go more often. The honest to goodness truth is that I am just not that motivated I suppose. I look at my sweet baby and I think about how I need to change to make sure that he is healthier than me but when it comes down to it I just can't seem to resist that McDonald's calling my name. Speaking of McDonald's I came across this picture the other day. It kind of put things in perspective for me.

I eat this stuff all of the time! Its hard to imagine what it is doing to my insides. I also recently found out what aspartame really is. The stuff that is in my beloved diet soda. Aspartame is literally the fecal matter of genetically engineered E coli bacteria - they feed it toxic waste and then the bacteria defecate aspartame. Lovely, right?

Well, the other morning I was browsing Netflix like I often do when I am up at the crack of dawn with Jack and I came across a documentary called "Hungry For  Change." I thought it looked interesting so I watched it. Everything in it made sense. I then watched m"Food Matters" and "Sick, Tired, and Nearly Dead. I was all excited and I decided I was going to put some of the principles in action. 2 weeks later and I'm still enjoying my big cheeseburger and chicken stars from Carl's Jr. 

But Friday night I went to a seminar type thing from the Green Smoothie Girl. I learned a lot. In fact I even won a bottle for my green smoothies. My mother in law bought her "12 steps to Whole Foods" and I have been reading through it. I have discovered that the only way I am going to be able to change is to get all of the toxic chemicals out of my body so that I don't crave all of the crap anymore. The reason I can't say no to my large 2 cheeseburger meal is because sheer willpower is simply not enough when those chemicals make those foods like drugs to my brain. 

The first step is to quit drinking soda and start having a green smoothie every day. Tomorrow begins my road to recovery I guess. Now don't get me wrong-I have had massive anxiety all day just thinking about not having my beloved diet Dr. Pepper everyday. In fact, I have one getting nice and cold in the freezer right now. One last one before I bid adieu. 

Now wish me luck. This sure ain't going to be easy!